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Re: Every day remains a wandering road

Post by Greensprout on Thu Aug 02, 2018 8:42 pm

The snoring started sometime after my deployment 10 years ago. Obstructive sleep apnea is linked to PTSD, which I have been diagnosed with. There will be another sleep study done next month, 3 months post oral appliance.

Today I was supposed to meet an old colleague for coffee (retired military Int medicine specialist, currently working in local tertiary hospitals). He had to cancel, as another military Int Med colleague (whom I had met but didn’t really know) suicided yesterday, and as he has no family here, my friend had to go and deal with some of his personal effects. So completely horrible and tragic. He was supposed to have final release from military interview yesterday and didnt show. Had been hired in a Regional hospital as ICU director and was to start today. Wow. This line of work has taken such a toll on so many of us.
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Post by Greensprout on Thu Aug 02, 2018 9:45 pm

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Post by Lovebird on Fri Aug 03, 2018 12:33 am

So sorry GS. ((HUGS))

Beautiful and heartbreaking vid Sad thanks for sharing.
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Post by Pedidoc on Fri Aug 03, 2018 12:49 am

The toll on deployed healthcare workers is certainly very high and IMHO under-recognized. Hugs to you and positive thoughts of support to your friend.
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Post by Narrowminded on Fri Aug 03, 2018 8:22 am

GS I am so very sorry about the physician that was lost. My heart and prayers go out to all of you. I have very good friends in the military, some of which have served in Iraq in war time. They, like you, are always on my mind.

Thank you for sharing that wonderful video. I’m going to pass that onto them.

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Post by perennialpam on Fri Aug 03, 2018 12:46 pm

I wept watching that video. Thank you for sharing.

So sorry for the things you were subjected to and saw. Much love.
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Post by Meant2Move on Fri Aug 03, 2018 1:22 pm

So sorry to hear of another life lost to war. As Lovebird said, a beautiful and heartbreaking video.

Please continue to take care of yourself so that you might heal.
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Post by tomi1000 on Fri Aug 03, 2018 4:00 pm

I've seen this video posted on FB - I could never bring myself to watch it past the first 15 second cuz I got a lump in my throat. I watched the entire video this time. Heart breaking what war does to the human spirit. I have a deep appreciation for all who serve and for those who fight to hold back the evils of the world. God bless you.......... continued healing prayers.
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Re: Every day remains a wandering road

Post by Lovebird on Sat Aug 04, 2018 12:34 am



There is an album... Sailor Jerri - No Rules in Sight
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Post by Greensprout on Sat Aug 04, 2018 1:02 am

Appreciate all of your thoughts.  LB, nice find on a more positive song, thank you.  Checked in with friend who had to deal with details yesterday, he’s okay.  We will meet up next week.

Is a long weekend here.  Son #2 will be heading back from Banff sometime tomorrow.  Here’s a view from one of the hikes they did

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Post by Greensprout on Sun Aug 05, 2018 11:19 pm

Son made it home around 2 am. All good. He had a fabulous experience.

My mood has been better yesterday and today than in a long time. Not sure what specifically helped, but is good, regardless. On the self care front, I have purchased a 3 pack into package to a float place. The sort where you are immersed in water filled with a crapton of magnesium, so there’s no option but to float. You are alone in an individual room, can control the amount of light and how closed in you are, each session is 90 min. Booked for Tuesday for first float.

Finally started on my decluttering for the first time in a while. Filled a big trash bag of items to donate, garbage a few items that needed it, and went through all my makeup. Tossed the old used stuff, took all the unused products that come with a promo deal (mostly Lancôme) put them into nice pouches offered to son #2’s girlfriend. She was thrilled with the lot. Happy she can use rather than going into the trash. Much more to go, but is a decent start. Have looked around the house, both at my personal things and household stuff, and I can see many more things that will go away soon.

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Post by Lovebird on Sun Aug 05, 2018 11:55 pm

Awesome!
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Post by Pedidoc on Mon Aug 06, 2018 5:28 am

Fantastic report, GS. Sounds like you may have turned the corner. I will be interested in your report on the floating.
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Post by tomi1000 on Mon Aug 06, 2018 1:47 pm

The Float tank sounds great. My NP highly recommends it for de-stressing and finding an "inner peace". She says using the float tanks helps train your mind to find that calm place again. I hope you find it useful and healing.

Cleaning out and letting go of unneeded/unwanted things always makes me feel lighter! Smile
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Post by Narrowminded on Mon Aug 06, 2018 5:21 pm

GS what a wonderful report. I did a semi-similar thing with a float at a spa once. It wasn’t magnesium but it felt wonderful, I think you will enjoy it.

Great job with the decluttering too!

So very happy for you.
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Post by Greensprout on Mon Aug 06, 2018 8:45 pm

A third day of feeling pretty decent. Of course, this is medicated, but I’ll take it. Walked to Walmart this afternoon for one needed item, found a few more needed things as I wandered all the grocery isles. Added up to 2.7 miles, though the store is only 0.7 miles away...

Ribs and slaw tonight for dinner. Hubby and kids were very happy.

Tomorrow at noon I float.
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Post by Meant2Move on Mon Aug 06, 2018 10:07 pm

I hope you find it very soothing. I'll be so curious to learn what you think of it.
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Post by Greensprout on Tue Aug 07, 2018 8:18 pm

Float day. Booked for noon, 90 minutes. About 15-20 min drive away. Started with the usual spa type questionnaire.nnand probably a release of liability, tho I don’t recall. Felt a bit anxious going in, but manageable.

Into the room. Totally private, lock the door. They recommend using bathroom (not in your space) before going in. Undress, shower - lukewarm recommended (they have pre and post shampoo/body wash/conditioner in shower). Silicone earplugs provided. Climb into tank with 10 inches of H20 with approx 800lbs of magnesium salts. You have no choice but to float. Can prop door open with a pool noodle if you don’t want the total darkness. I did’t, but took in with me a little floaty glow ball and set onto a soft pink light. No sound. Turned light ball off after a short while.

Now total darkness, so no difference whether eyes are open or closed. Floating is effortless, water at body temp so is neither warm nor cool. Just is. Some of the time I meditated, many times thoughts intruded -things to do, etc. Gently pushed those out to quiet what the Buddhists call “the monkey mind”. Complete relaxation. At 5 min before the end of the 90 min session, some gentle music comes on. Was quite surprised that the whole time had passed.

Climb out, shower all the salt off, and there’s an area with hairdryers and lotion, etc. Encouraged to chill post float in the relax area, with water and tea available. Several journals are spread around tables, with other visitors comments/thoughts about their floats. Read some, chose not to add.

Overall a very good experience. They recommend 2-3 floats to really understand how it works for you, hence the 3 float intro package. Felt very relaxed afterwards, no anxiety, simply calm.

Still feeling that way 5 hours later.


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Post by Annieh on Tue Aug 07, 2018 9:47 pm

Greensprout, this sounds as if it was perfectly relaxing and calming for you, which is wonderful. Thank you for describing your experience.
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Post by Pedidoc on Tue Aug 07, 2018 10:51 pm

Wow, what a great experience for you. Glad it seems to have worked.
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Post by Narrowminded on Wed Aug 08, 2018 9:17 am

GS I’m am so happy you had a good float experience. Sounds like something you needed.
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Post by Meant2Move on Wed Aug 08, 2018 2:58 pm

Thanks for the excellent description. So glad it was positive for you, and so pleased you could calm the monkey mind - that one is tough sometimes.
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Post by tomi1000 on Wed Aug 08, 2018 3:12 pm

Sounds like a very positive experience! I hope you find it helps with your healing.
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Post by The Walrus on Wed Aug 08, 2018 6:15 pm

I have to try this! Sounds wonderful. I'm so glad you had a good experience.
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Post by Greensprout on Wed Aug 08, 2018 9:46 pm

Another good day mood wise. This makes 5 in a row. As good as it feels, I’m a bit nervous, as what happens if and when this takes a downturn again? And could this abrupt change be heading to hypomania? Saw psychologist today, and discussed all of this. She didnt feel there was any hypomania going on, but did note that while this is an up, not to be surprised if there’s a downturn, which is likely, and then maybe another upswing. Interesting. Told hubby about it (he has noted my mood better the last few days, as well as more energy and motivation to accomplish things). Advised him of things to look for it it goes too far on the elevated mood and to let me know if he sees that.

Not sure where things are going from here. Will try to keep the momentum going while I can. Strange place to be.
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