HeuristicFireFlower's Reach for Highest Potential

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Post by Lovebird on Sat Nov 10, 2018 3:57 am

Hope you're feeling much better by now. *careful hug* Pilates sounds like a great idea. Smile Your muscles may have been dutifully exercised/stretched for years, but it's likely that needed relaxation/massage was ignored (as knots/tightness prove, due to stress being high, for far too long... Sad ).

Glad you've got a good chiro to help out too. Don't forget to work that booty as well. Wink
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Post by Heuristicfireflower on Thu Nov 15, 2018 3:30 pm

Thanks NM, Tomi

I believe you're right LB.  Smile   Lack of work / break balance has taken a toll.   I look forward to Pilates.  I long to move full range without injuring myself.

Currently grateful for:  The season of heat and ants are finally gone.  Those little bastards where present every single day of summer.  Exasperating!!!  Grateful that I have a home esp. after watching reports of so many homes go up in flames.  The day after it started walked out to a big red angry sun and ashes all over the cars and ground.  Sad to think these little grey specks were trees, someones home or worse...My heart goes out to those that lost their homes in the fire.  

Grateful to find my mom safe every day I come home from Pasadena.  
Right now recovering not only from my low back spasm, but also from a lousy gut flare-up.  6 days and finally today no pain with no painkillers.  Yay.   But the stress continues……

At least once a week we were calling the police as transient campers kept setting up their tents and junk along the sidewalk across our homes.   There was a big deal over residents in Long Beach going out to secure their neighborhood by doing a neighborhood watch type walk   They were criticized for caring about how bad things are getting with drug addicts and thieves and the enormous amount of trash that has become unacceptable.  City suits force citizens to band together to protect their area and homes.  Makes me mad that residents are called names and grouped as vigilantes by fools who don't live and deal with this daily.  

Right now trying to figure out how to work with the local PD and get their consistent support while we try different ways to repel the meth camp 500 feet from us.   The neighbors on the other side of the freeway are contending with the worst type of transient that expose themselves, trash the street and act aggressively towards residents. The transients invaded the freeway planted zone and set up permanent camps inside city private property across from homes. RV's squat in limited parking spaces and take over the sidewalks.  The city does nothing.  On our side of the freeway two rental property owners hired evening security to partially cover the alley entrance.  The effect was quite dramatic - Our side cleaned up.   No more drug buys in the alley.  I hope the security guard is armed.  He needs to stay safe as well.

My plan as the transient encroachment time ticks on:
I am working towards learning new art skills. Am learning the ropes of game and film character design.  It really is something I want to do as a profession but, need speed.  I have to remind myself,  I am learning and with time the confidence will come as well as speed.  I still despair that I will never be ready and it will be longer for me to secure a good paying job.Plus the fact that I am older makes me more insecure.  In Los Angeles there is a LOT of competition.  I have to work to distinguish myself from all the others in quality and understanding, plus following art direction.   My strong suit is I know how to draw humans quite well.  

The class assignment is designing 3 characters from a book from scratch.  Which means research on face types, body types, attitude, costume and culture.  Culture is bound to climate and environment.  My research has led me to Aegean, Island culture from the Bronze Age.  This is where I pull from to build my character's clothes, technology and finally my take on the look.  Very engrossing and I really enjoy this, but also, very stressful when the ideas are not forthcoming.  

I need a full time job to handle the process of leaving this area.  One year. I give myself one year max to get it done.
Interesting that while I was indisposed, my stress was gone  since I couldn't do anything about it I didn't look out front, back alley, avoided thinking about the area and i felt peaceful.  
Soon as I could walk straight and pick up where I left off I began to see transients setting up tarps on sidewalk and the emails from neighbors coming in……. the stress came back.  I had forgotten what it's like to live without worry about my safety. I long for that peaceful existence a little while longer...
There has to be places in California that doesn't have enforcement or fire issues.  I continue to look.
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Post by Narrowminded on Thu Nov 15, 2018 5:58 pm

HFF I continue to pray for your situation and your ability to get away from it.

So thankful for the security guard.

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Post by Lovebird on Sat Nov 24, 2018 12:18 pm

Sorry to hear your gut acted up again, even if it's not really a surprise with all that stress going on. Glad to hear it passed already and the meds helped. Grateful you're relatively safe, at least from the fire and also due to the security guard.

Hope you enjoyed your Thanksgiving festivities and that you and your mom are okay, as are the rest of your supportive family members.

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Post by The Walrus on Mon Dec 03, 2018 12:27 am

Hoping all is well with you and hoping even more that conditions have improved in your neighbourhood. I know the gut issues! Take care -
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Post by Lovebird on Sun Dec 23, 2018 4:37 am

Merry Christmas HFF! Hope all is well. Hugs.
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Post by The Walrus on Mon Dec 24, 2018 4:01 pm

Merry Christmas HFF!
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Post by Narrowminded on Tue Dec 25, 2018 1:52 pm

Merry Christmas HFF
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Post by Heuristicfireflower on Fri Dec 28, 2018 7:35 am

Thank you Lovebird, NM, TW Hope everyone had a fantastic time with their loved ones.
The Walrus wrote:So sorry to hear what you are going through, and praying for the best outcome.  So hard!  I too lived in California for many years, and although I loved it, it is not the place it once was.  I lived in Manhattan Beach when it was a funky surfer hangout, lots of old falling down beach shacks.  Those were the days!  But after a few stops in other places, I have found my true paradise down under in Australia.  And that can happen for you too!  Although I wish your neighborhood would turn back into the peaceful area it was and you can stay put.  That would be the best!
TW,
How wonderful that you are experiencing such a lovely time with your love on another continent!   I take much heart that really goods things can happen and I'm so happy that you've found an ally and life partner and an awesome life.  I really enjoy reading about your journey and the new things you discover good and....different.  Smile   Sorry I didn't mention it earlier.  I think one of the important things I take from your life experience is that there are many cool things to learn about in the world, but, can't if the courage to see beyond our little goldfish bowl isn't allowed.  I think of you as well as my cousin when I feel it's impossible and I'm overwhelmed.

My cousin had to make a choice at a crucial point in her life as well.  Her dept. (where she worked over 20 years) was going to shut down in California and a lay-off with a house note, and not quite ready for independence children still at home, was a massive stressor along with all the negative mind chatter about leaving her kids behind and other things. You see the writing on the wall as others are laid off, but it's always a shock when the time comes for you.  Well, the company gave her the option of continuing working in her regular position, but in Virginia.  Yikes.  This for someone close to her mom, sisters, entire family, pretty united she bought a house right next door to stay that way.  i watched as she made her choice and went bravely out to foreign land Virginia all by herself.  Certainly not California climate-wise or people-wise.  Not many Latinos down South. Everything she grew up around and people she grew up with would be so far away.  She dug deep down and found her strength. A year has passed as she adapted and made a home away from home. Cheerfully!  She's cultivated the mental fortitude to forge on. Wash DC is her backyard, she is gregarious and makes friends with a great spirit of adventure and is exploring state parks, museums, national monuments.  So not a quitter.  She has been an incredible example for me, her sisters and her kids.

It impresses me deeply that people can build a new or different life and thrive.   Always has.


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Post by Heuristicfireflower on Fri Dec 28, 2018 8:21 am

With these examples I take heart that even I will have a better experience than I am having now.  

I didn't want to be a sop, but, I need to journal to relieve the emotional pressure.  I'm needing to hear / read that things can actually be different in my future.  I just feel somewhat alone right now.   My family and close cousins, friends, love me and are there for me.  I've never doubted and thank God they ARE there because I couldn't survive without them, but, sometimes you don't want them to know the full depths of your despair, don't want to see the worry because they don't know how to help you.   I hate being on the edge of tears all the time.  Journaling this stuff down is the pressure valve release.

It seems my life these last few months has culminated into one thing after another to keep me down.  My plans for a better life were put on hold while my body decided to vent all that is wrong with it.  I've been in tears most every evening in total defeat.  Cathartic, yes but, not done by a long shot and I need to journal here and get my emotions out of my head.

I've endured almost 6 weeks of inflamed colon and intermittent horrible pain from 2 blown out external hemorrhoid veins.  It's largely subsided, but, the veins are so compromised that any little strain (not even on a toilet) will flare them and I'm going on wk 8 trying to keep my body from escalating once again.  I have to be ultra diligent not to miss a magnesium dose or just as bad not to overdose and it's never exact which is one of the problems in managing.

And when it's bad the pain is not just local it shoots from point A to somewhere above my belly button and everything below becomes a nerve firing event for hours.  Like razor blades when I go and a razor blade suddenly hitting the side of my gut, spasms and irritation for weeks.

The Doctors office I'm assigned to needs to go through anti-inflammatory prescripts and modalities protocol before any referral to a specialist would be considered.  I told him I've been managing for over 8 years.  Even though, he really made an effort to sway me away from a referral.  That was almost a month ago.  Insurance needs one to go through 3 + weeks of struggle and barely endurable pain before they think you're worthy of the next person up the ladder that could actually help.  Anyway, I'll be writing a detailed synopsis of my life with hemms so he has a record.   I know there are procedures, but, I'm just so frustrated with my life right now.  I want them permanently gone and just need to know my options esp. in terms of laser cauterization.  I've had enough.

My design class was one of the most important things I could've done for myself this entire year.  This was to push my skills further with new practical knowledge. The timing was impeccable and the best moment chosen for terrible distracting pain. It made an event during the entire 2nd half of the course.  Was on painkillers and basically stopped eating most solid food or just went with one meal a day. Pent up childish rant after week 5:  Why am I always dealing with THIS $#!T?  Give me a
F%#ING BREAK?    For some reason the voice of Al Pacino in Scent of a Woman mentally sounds of.  Because of the distracting pain outside (low back tear) and inside especially sitting, I got behind on class assignments,  lost the inspiration to catch up and failed to finish my final presentation.   How's that for a professional showing in the most important class of the year.  I succeeded in not sinking into depression, but, motivation was mostly gone.  There were tears of frustration and then a hollow F' me state descended.

Sidenote today: And we still have yelling mentals appearing in front of our houses dragging trash and often leaving a trail along the sidewalk that stays there.  Business camera demonstrated that some of them use strewn clothes as butt wipers after using the sidewalk…..    Our district city councilman is out enjoying his celebratory handshaking, ribbon cutting BS events of beautifying the other side of town with a garden and murals!!!  

New development:  For some reason my inner left knee is very painful to bend with weight.   Why.  I suspect it's to do with muscle weakness, imbalances around an unstable spine to pelvis that has torqued my knee somehow.    Length of left side of trunk can have it's flurry of spasms and pulled muscles at the worst times.   Will be seeing an osteopath late this morning.

All simply add to my proof that my life will be nothing but struggle with a modicum of enjoyment.
Sometimes stating what we fear most helps to move through the dark passage.  This is truthfully reaching into the wells of anger and sense of abandonment, something I must acknowledge.

What follows are things exactly in my head that I've been trying to confront, process:
I know intellectually that things can change for me - I have to put in the work and it will happen especially with God's help. “The plans of the diligent surely lead to success.”-  Proverbs: 21:5  Part of me believes it.  My faith is not so strong but I've always had a measure of it even if hidden in a small small corner of my heart.  I've seen so many people do this!  I love to read of these folks with the will to accept the challenge and they plan and they succeed.  Every time persistence pays them well.  I know this and put in my library of things that are possible.  My faith grew when my blood clot went away in less than 3 months and the vein was declared clear AND uninjured - God gives us better than we ask for.  24  This is why I tell you, all the things you pray and ask for, have faith that you have received them, and you will have them. Mark 11:24

But, emotionally I think never for me because i'm dead in the water with fear. Fear that I'lll always fail because my body will not support me or another family tragedy will be the final straw, I'll be left alone and I won't have the strength to handle and that will be the final weary phase of my life never having expanded my own path. <This sentence produces the most tears. My sense of peace and confidence doesn't really exist anymore. I'm afraid to move forward because I feel one more thing will happen and it will be basically pointless to plan my own life. As the saying goes if you don't believe it will happen then it won't. And that makes me cry. What I need from me is not forthcoming. The weight of fear doesn't let me hang onto the rim for long. I keep sliding back. I've been sliding back for 10 years. Do you see why I feel like a failure? My brain has been rewired to lean this way because I'm hyper sensitive to stress. I think I understand the problem, where it built from, but, haven't figured out how to resolve it. “God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it” (1 Corinthians 10:13)

This is where I currently am.  5:18 in the morning, dull throbbing pain in my gut and the spark of hope still flickers.   Thank you all for reading this far.  Don't worry, I haven't lost hope, but, damn, if I'm not tired, so tired of waiting for the turn of the tide…..
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Post by Heuristicfireflower on Fri Dec 28, 2018 9:06 am

Just read this:  "“We think of procrastination as an irrational delay because our reasons for action simply aren’t sufficient to motivate action,” says Pychyl. “More accurately, procrastination is a-rational, without reason — because the real issue is emotional.”

When the negative emotions associated with a task start to settle in, procrastinators impulsively seek out distractions that will suppress those negative emotions. This suggests that procrastination and impulsivity are intrinsically linked — and science backs it up."
The Science Behind Why We Procrastinate

There's another big fat clue for me.
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Post by tomi1000 on Fri Dec 28, 2018 1:25 pm

HFF - my hearts hurts for you. There is so much you are dealing with! Although painful to feel and acknowledge these thoughts and feelings - it is so important to do so. Sometimes, for me, just the acknowledgement and expression of my feelings helps to unburden my soul. That is why I use my journal as an emotional dumping ground. I work through things, figure out things, and glean from the help of others. Your health issues are very serious and I think you need to be "the squeaky wheel" to get things moving along faster with your health care team. Protocol be damned!

I understand living through years of pain and symptoms that completely screw up your life! I understand the despair and the struggle to keep your head above water when you're weary from the fight. Keep your faith, hang on to that, and let it be your guide. I know I will be healed of my physical struggles because it is promised. What isn't promised is the timing of the healing. All things "in His time".

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." ~ Matthew 11:28-30

I can't imagine living with the environmental struggles as well. I'm sure you can find compassion for the struggles of the people living in, or perhaps 'invading', your neighborhood - but, Oh my goodness!!! This can't be allowed to continue! Or you can not continue to live there. What are your options?

I am praying for you......... for physical healing, for mental and emotional strength, and for a door to open to allow an escape from this living situation.

Stay strong - stay in your faith and ask Him to grow it stronger. Bring it out of that small corner in your heart and let it be your beacon of hope and light.
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Post by Narrowminded on Fri Dec 28, 2018 8:28 pm

HFF - praying for you. I know how it feels to have so much on your plate. Know that we all have your back. Vent here all you like

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Post by Heuristicfireflower on Fri Dec 28, 2018 8:44 pm

Yes! Thank you Tomi.

Agree with everything you stated.  Thanks for reminding me of the verse.  
This is a big reason I have a journal - To log my passage from dark to light.  I was raised to keep quiet basically.  It helped to be able to open the valve and just "let" without boundaries.  I'm good now.  : ]

Thank you NM,  I think of the gals here as a cache vast experiences and love which culminates into a lovely group of wise women.  I'm so glad and fortunate that I am connected to all of you.

Seems each time I cycle through the emotions, I have less fear.  A rest because I let go of another piece of that weight.

Osteopath agreed with me that I was a "mess".  I came in with stiff neck, sore left touchy hip with spasms, mid-back tightness, left arm with flutters of involuntary muscle activation ending at intermittently twitching index finger. Nice. Think of Scrat in Ice Age when he loses his acorn.  I tend to pull my left shoulder, the business arm when I sit too long or am stressed (which seems to be always), up and in…. for days.  Unsurprisingly enough my shoulder pulled everything on the left out of place and tugged on my hip muscles that mis-aligned my knee…..    I don't know how he does it, but, my Osteo is so light in touch and doesn't manipulate muscle so much as the nervous system with a pattern of specific sustained pressure.  He has un-torqued my spine and hip many times throughout the years.

So this evening, after making and ingesting some salmon burgers,  I am going to sit down and make an attempt to work on my class project.


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Post by perennialpam on Sat Dec 29, 2018 7:41 am

Glad to hear your Osteopath was able to help with your body issues.
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Post by Annieh on Mon Dec 31, 2018 10:30 pm

I hope you made some progress with your project, good on you doing something for yourself. New Year good wishes to you.
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Post by Narrowminded on Tue Jan 01, 2019 11:08 am

Happy New Year HFF. Hopefully you will stay straightened out bodily wise. Good luck on your project.
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Post by perennialpam on Tue Jan 01, 2019 11:44 am

Happy New Year HFF. Keep on chuglin' along.
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Post by Meant2Move on Wed Jan 02, 2019 2:46 pm

Happy New Year!
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Post by Heuristicfireflower on Wed Jan 02, 2019 8:07 pm

Thanks gals!   I hope this year will allow me the goals I am striving for.  I hope everyone passed a wonderful time with your loved ones.  I did with my Aunt and Uncle both my dad's siblings and my best friends/ cousins and then came home to mum.

Today is day 4 of the tamale event.  Since there is no one to help me make them (except 89 year old mum) I spread out the process over days.  

Every December she would make them for my dad and posole on New Years.   And she expressed a tamal would be so yummy right about now.  I don't know if she'll be able to eat these kinds of foods anymore because she has some newer health issues cropping up and I wanted her to enjoy her style of tamale before, maybe she can't.  I use pastured meat and in the past organic masa.  I know she would love them made with a masa that's finer than the organic I use and so brought some home to make as she used to.  

This is my mom's sort of recipe - Well, she's kinda fuzzy on the ingredients……   I recorded her ingredient ratios when she still remembered it.  Mostly by taste as you go cooking prep.
So, I am now,  the new designated by default Tamal Kitchen Queen.

Anyway, I cooked 6 -7 pounds of pork shoulder on Day 1.  Cooked a chicken and a half Day 2.  Day 3  roasted a couple of Anaheim and Chile Anchos, 4 jalapenos  and a pound of tomatillos and made the green sauce for the chicken and cheese tamales……..
And Day 4 the big event will begin.  Turned on Pandora.  Starting the red mole sauce for the pork and prepare the masa with all acquired and processed ingredients.   12 pounds y'all of masa to beat and mix with broth and lard.   As long as the twitching in my left arm is at a minimal, I think I got it covered.  After,  it's just a zen kinda assembly line of applying masa, dollop of mole/meat and then steaming the whole lot.

It will be nice when one of each is sitting steaming on my plate.    Smile

A new orchid bloom list, also, begins.  Smile
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Post by Pedidoc on Wed Jan 02, 2019 8:47 pm

Good Tamales are hard to find. The masa has to be worked just right. I made posole last year when we had a full house to feed.
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Post by Narrowminded on Thu Jan 03, 2019 6:29 am

Wow that’s a lot of masa. I do homemade tortillas and even just a small batch takes time. What a task of love.
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Post by perennialpam on Thu Jan 03, 2019 8:05 am

Sounds like a lot of work to me. Good for you for providing your mom with such a gift.
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Post by Heuristicfireflower on Thu Jan 03, 2019 9:16 am

Pedidoc,  yes!
Even the mole has it's important details - A balance of garlic, cumin added to either ground chile or steamed dried chiles, the right amount of broth and masa (as I made several notes this morning) in the mix.  

NM, ya.  I did not realize how tiring that amount is! I'm now the ex-tamal queen.  Only got half way through the mole and green chile at around 4am. Big red note to self - Start earlier!

PPam, no kidding, not doing this much again w/o more hands.  My aunt made 30 pounds and it was all eaten in 2 days (large family - her kids and grandkids), then she made 15 more pounds and that disappeared in no time.  I'm astounded at the energy and commitment every year.   She told me it's love that gives her the inspiration and energy. I'm workin' on that.  Impatience greater than love right now.

The green chile chicken came out quite GoooD!  I was worried as it's a new recipe try and no one has ever made a green chile tamale before in our house.  Inspired from a Serious Eats post.  Added a bit of cheese which will now be added outside instead of inside the tamale as it curdled.

I've watched my mom make her food for close to 40 years and I took over the last 10.  I think I've slowly evolved cooking as a therapy for getting my mind off stressful things. I quite enjoy it when I have the time. Never thought food would be so relaxing before you eat it and decided I wanted to learn as many of my moms recipes that I could, esp. now that her memory is so fragile. I  can make (now 2 kinds!!) tamales.  From my mom I, also, learned to make cheese enchiladas, posole, menudo, albondigas soup, 2 versions of picadillo and once made Mole Poblano, the chocolate one (my favorite kind)!!  

I love food shows, love the history of dishes.  While finishing the dishes I watched Ugly Delicious. Dave Chang, the host, said "food has a sense of community...food that's made with love..that's what separates a good meal from a tremendous meal".   I love that and often dream of having a lovely space where something like this could happen.  One day.....

Anyways, still haven't slept…now going to bed and, sigh, getting 8 more pounds of masa because I still have a quart of mole …….  this is why it's only once a year or less.
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Post by Meant2Move on Thu Jan 03, 2019 1:52 pm

What an epic!  But yummy, homemade tamales - so worth it (from this side of being the eater, not the creator...).

Rest well, you've earned it.
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